I use adderall as a coping mechanism for my shit life, it makes me feel good etc. but I noticed I seem to have slowly developed possible OCD? I wash my hands probably about 30-50 times a day and just finished taking my 6th shower since I had the day off.
I also seem to be obsessed with the smell of vanilla, I have vanilla candles, vanilla bodywash and vanilla lotion, now I just need to find the perfect vanilla fragrance.
The thing is it just dawned on me about an hour ago that this is bizarre and before taking adderall about two years ago I never used to do any of this. I feel like maybe I changed little by little till now, it’s winter in the northeast and my hands are cracked and bleeding from so many showers and hand washings. I’ve blown money I shouldn’t spend on finding the perfect vanilla scented items.
At 33 I thought I’d be married and have kids and white picket fence etc. not obsessing over weird stuff. At the candle store today I saw so many hot chicks it was depressing, depressing knowing I’ll never have any of that. Just my fucking French vanilla candles smelling up my shitty ass apartment, and for who? I never have any guests......besides personal hygiene my apartment is a freaking mess.
Anyways I guess my point is.....if you think adderall is going to help turn your life around, if you’re an incel....it will probably do the opposite,that’s my thought on the subject anyways.
I also seem to be obsessed with the smell of vanilla, I have vanilla candles, vanilla bodywash and vanilla lotion, now I just need to find the perfect vanilla fragrance.
The thing is it just dawned on me about an hour ago that this is bizarre and before taking adderall about two years ago I never used to do any of this. I feel like maybe I changed little by little till now, it’s winter in the northeast and my hands are cracked and bleeding from so many showers and hand washings. I’ve blown money I shouldn’t spend on finding the perfect vanilla scented items.
At 33 I thought I’d be married and have kids and white picket fence etc. not obsessing over weird stuff. At the candle store today I saw so many hot chicks it was depressing, depressing knowing I’ll never have any of that. Just my fucking French vanilla candles smelling up my shitty ass apartment, and for who? I never have any guests......besides personal hygiene my apartment is a freaking mess.
Anyways I guess my point is.....if you think adderall is going to help turn your life around, if you’re an incel....it will probably do the opposite,that’s my thought on the subject anyways.
