- May 6, 2021
- 48d 8h 16m
It seems someone ignored the entire post if that's your reply telling me to "just forget things and do what I enjoy". I enjoy nothing. There's no cope for me that works anymore, NOTHING WORKS ANYMORE, NOTHING.reav3r112 said:You’ve got to forget about people and just do your own thing. You are you. Look at what you have. A roof over your head. A place to sleep. Do the things you enjoy and just try to be happy. Do whatever you want and appreciate the freedoms you have. Theres people out there with a thousand times worse problems than you. You’ve got to enjoy yourself. Forget the past. Stop thinking so damn much. You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it. Also if you cant find work try a temp agency.
Like I said just in the sewers seconds ago... I will just copy my post to here so you can understand a bit about the "forget the past thing"
For sure, but many times I come across something that makes me feel bad, because as I said, reminds me of myself, my life, and what I go through along with everyone where, and many people have lived very shitty experiences I would never get over and brush it off. The autism combined with my obsession with meaningless things, never being able to deal with things in a healthy way like most people and hypersensitivity really fucks me up.
Some minor thing happens and it fucks my brain for years continuously. There are things from many years ago, minor things, still disturbing the fuck out of my life and never leaving me in peace. It's pure mental hell.
If I could forget the past I would obviously be in a far better state than now. I just stayed in bed from before yesterday to today, amounting to a total time of at least 30 hours, that's mega, last stages of LDARing before either making an extremely drastic change or roping.
And "people have far worse than you" is one of the worst fucking bluepill copes there are. Realizing that people have it worse than you won't magically make your situation better, I think about it all day honestly, and nothing change, nothing magically changed or some girl magically appeared to me, actual friends, joy, or gratefulness for being alive, because all I carry is regret and bitterness. I have a mental breakdown before 2 days ago and that was it for me, I got fed up with so many of them, the last one I have will have to be the last, I can't live like this almost daily, I just can't.
You are not to someone who just had a fucked up emotional life, you are talking to someone that had his brain rotten by 14 years of social and emotional isolation and that had the brain completely, savagely ravaged by mental illness.
I will not seek meds or therapy, that's just a workaround for problems that can't be solved, I don't want workaround, I want SOLUTIONS, and these things are not solutions, so I better just seek my own permanent solution for permanent problems = .