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I'm describing myself as black pilled due to several reasons such as a general pessimism against present and future sitation of humankind, economy, politics etc. Actually I make an effort about gain a "theoric" basis about this pessimism and I'm reading writers such as Rousseau (pessimism against technology) and Benatar (anti-natalism) to learn "true" pessimism.
Interestingly I've became less unhappy since I had embraced pessimism, because it makes possible decrease my demands, desires and requirements from society, life, education and other things that placed at "universe". I want to talk about pessimism about relationships suitably to our pattern and themes.
At first, I should notice that my process of taking pill isn't connected directly my general pessimism; they have intricate ties between themselves but they are not correlate directly.
I can't remember when I found TRP, MGTOW and PUA outrightly but I'm sure that I filled my brain their teachings such as sexual market value, alpha-beta taxonomies, dating and flirting strategies that derivated from a highly selfishness and pseudo-Stoic assumptions. They seemed as give a madison will fix and cure my problems about my relationships and I adopted them ardently with a hope that I would reach better points where I stand before. That point means I had not never a girlfriend.
Conclusion? Limited improvement at my business-education life and a certain disappointment at my relationships.
I went to gym and lost 10 kg, started to choice better clothes, bought perfumes etc. You can put each TRP things here... Fake it till you make it and other things. Conclusion? The conclusion is here:
-I tried to talk a girl from another country who came to our college and it ended up completely fail.
-I had went to a language school and met a girl there then we started talking in some way and this ended up me being thrown into friendzone.
-I tried to talk another girl from my college and she couldn't even allow me texting herself and then she became lover another man within one week.
-My friend who doesn't anything according to TRP or something else from manosphere and had no muscle, physical supremacy -you should read those words as "sexual market value"- found a girl by way of another friend within one week.
-I tried to talk another girl and she couldn't even text with me again.
-The girls who dont talk with me at normal time came to me taking notes only.
-Meanwhile I learned how 21st century relationships stink like a shit and lost my last crubms of "good" wish towards women.
I draw your attention that all of these happened after I practised TRP advices.
So I've decided delete my social media accounts and gave up from relationships for a long time as possible and I will reject all emotional ties about woman. All of that pseudo-Stoic life guides, dating strategies have no meaning for me and I'm effording to ignoring woman, relationships, "love" and etc. I bristle with rage against modern relationships, friendship and other social connection models which I believed that only harmful for mental and physical health.
Thanks for reading!
I'm describing myself as black pilled due to several reasons such as a general pessimism against present and future sitation of humankind, economy, politics etc. Actually I make an effort about gain a "theoric" basis about this pessimism and I'm reading writers such as Rousseau (pessimism against technology) and Benatar (anti-natalism) to learn "true" pessimism.
Interestingly I've became less unhappy since I had embraced pessimism, because it makes possible decrease my demands, desires and requirements from society, life, education and other things that placed at "universe". I want to talk about pessimism about relationships suitably to our pattern and themes.
At first, I should notice that my process of taking pill isn't connected directly my general pessimism; they have intricate ties between themselves but they are not correlate directly.
I can't remember when I found TRP, MGTOW and PUA outrightly but I'm sure that I filled my brain their teachings such as sexual market value, alpha-beta taxonomies, dating and flirting strategies that derivated from a highly selfishness and pseudo-Stoic assumptions. They seemed as give a madison will fix and cure my problems about my relationships and I adopted them ardently with a hope that I would reach better points where I stand before. That point means I had not never a girlfriend.
Conclusion? Limited improvement at my business-education life and a certain disappointment at my relationships.
I went to gym and lost 10 kg, started to choice better clothes, bought perfumes etc. You can put each TRP things here... Fake it till you make it and other things. Conclusion? The conclusion is here:
-I tried to talk a girl from another country who came to our college and it ended up completely fail.
-I had went to a language school and met a girl there then we started talking in some way and this ended up me being thrown into friendzone.
-I tried to talk another girl from my college and she couldn't even allow me texting herself and then she became lover another man within one week.
-My friend who doesn't anything according to TRP or something else from manosphere and had no muscle, physical supremacy -you should read those words as "sexual market value"- found a girl by way of another friend within one week.
-I tried to talk another girl and she couldn't even text with me again.
-The girls who dont talk with me at normal time came to me taking notes only.
-Meanwhile I learned how 21st century relationships stink like a shit and lost my last crubms of "good" wish towards women.
I draw your attention that all of these happened after I practised TRP advices.
So I've decided delete my social media accounts and gave up from relationships for a long time as possible and I will reject all emotional ties about woman. All of that pseudo-Stoic life guides, dating strategies have no meaning for me and I'm effording to ignoring woman, relationships, "love" and etc. I bristle with rage against modern relationships, friendship and other social connection models which I believed that only harmful for mental and physical health.
Thanks for reading!
