I was 15-16 years old and at a wedding, I went to stab an old man in the arm just because he swore at me and I was drunk at the time,. I had no friends or girlfriends. When I was little, there was a girl I liked at school but when I was 16, I felt like she looked at me like a freak when she saw me. In the town where I lived, everyone described me as mentally ill, but I continued my asocial life, and when I turned 18, 18 months of compulsory military service was waiting for me.
I passed the examination and since I did not pay a bribe, I joined the army, although everyone knew that I was sick. I went to the army and everything happened as I expected, the other soldiers started to exclude me because I was not enterprising or social and they kept insulting me like a snitch behind my back and I was excluded so much so that I was fighting with them every day and the ranking officers were punishing me for this.
I can't tell you about it. I wanted to commit suicide and when I wrote a suicide note to the garrison commander, they delivered the note to my family and called them to the garrison and I warned my family not to come.
There is a lot to tell believe me but I don't want to tell you and I am not that energetic. I was put in a mental hospital 3 times during my compulsory military service which I had to do for 18 months. I cut myself with a razor to get out of that hell and my ticket out of that hell was this:
While I was in the mental hospital I got into a fight with another man and after breaking the man's leg I tried to choke him to death. They discharged me from the army as crazy in my 12th month.
I returned from the military and months later, I got a shitty paying job and it's still going on. I didn't even know what incel meant. I learned it about 6 months ago.
I didn't even know what incel meant. I learned it about 6 months ago.
