Usually I bypassed 2am depression monster drone strikes by simply going to sleep earlier or watching youtube or playing games so I wasn't forced upon self reflection. That's why when I had a little break at the night shift after 12pm felt extra brutal, as I couldn't go to sleep, or couldn't realistically do anything about it, and I didn't even reconsolidate during break, and just at the moment I thought it couldn't get any worse I remembered how much women are fucking whores nowadays as my agematch at 21 the virginity rates are probably around 1 percent. That is also on top of (biochemical) health condition that I've been having since the literal start of this year and none of the doctors can diagnose. I really hate how it's going and am still waiting for when things will get better to compensate for how horrendous it has been for the last 8 years
