What could be wrong with me? I'm probably an incel, because I'm 19 years old and I've only hugged a woman ONCE in my life. I'll never forget that day. I was all wet from the rain and this girl from school was coming down the stairs and came to ask me for a hug. She was in my class. We only talked sometimes when she came to talk to me, because I'm very shy and would just sit in the corner of the room alone wearing a coat in the 40-degree heat in Brazil.
She came to talk to me and then we started talking. The first time I saw her, I didn't think she was that pretty, maybe because we were wearing masks because of COVID. But after they dispense the use of masks, we started talking and she became the most beautiful woman to me. She was really nice to talk to. I even went with her to a little supermarket near the school and she bought some things for her house. We went back home together but went our separate ways because my house was closer and my mother was still picking me up, so I said goodbye and she left.
After about a month of talking to her at school, she said that her BOYFRIEND had helped her with her language assignment, and after she said that I was really sad but pretended not to.
I got home and cried a little, I was really sad, it was the first real contact I was having with a girl in 17 years of life and she already had a boyfriend.
Today, at 19 years old (I'll be 20 in January), I feel behind because I never kissed someone. To be honest, I would have lost my virginity if I had the chance, but since it's gotten to this pathetic level, I'd better pretend to keep it to myself, and I'm going to do that. But being being a kissless at 19 is very humiliating. I have zero experience with relationships.
I don't know if it's because I'm 5'8 foot tall, or because i have a 5,2 inches penis, or because I'm overweight (I used to go to the gym but I stopped in the middle of the year and haven't gone back yet), I've lost 10kg but nothing has changed. I'm still a shitty incel.
I don't know if there's a way out for me, redpill or blackpill. I've seen a lot of content from both communities and I identify with almost all of it. I'm starting to get angry with women and I'm staying away from them more and more out of fear. After finding out that my mother is cheating on my father, and my father apparently doesn't suspect anything, I lost all trust in women. I haven't had the courage to tell my father about it yet. I'm afraid of what might happen. Maybe they'll break up by next year, but that's not the focus of this post.
Does anyone have any tips on what I can do? Haircut, ways to increase height, genital thickness, anything that increases my sexual market value, please. I'm desperate. I just want to be a real man.
She came to talk to me and then we started talking. The first time I saw her, I didn't think she was that pretty, maybe because we were wearing masks because of COVID. But after they dispense the use of masks, we started talking and she became the most beautiful woman to me. She was really nice to talk to. I even went with her to a little supermarket near the school and she bought some things for her house. We went back home together but went our separate ways because my house was closer and my mother was still picking me up, so I said goodbye and she left.
After about a month of talking to her at school, she said that her BOYFRIEND had helped her with her language assignment, and after she said that I was really sad but pretended not to.
I got home and cried a little, I was really sad, it was the first real contact I was having with a girl in 17 years of life and she already had a boyfriend.
Today, at 19 years old (I'll be 20 in January), I feel behind because I never kissed someone. To be honest, I would have lost my virginity if I had the chance, but since it's gotten to this pathetic level, I'd better pretend to keep it to myself, and I'm going to do that. But being being a kissless at 19 is very humiliating. I have zero experience with relationships.
I don't know if it's because I'm 5'8 foot tall, or because i have a 5,2 inches penis, or because I'm overweight (I used to go to the gym but I stopped in the middle of the year and haven't gone back yet), I've lost 10kg but nothing has changed. I'm still a shitty incel.
I don't know if there's a way out for me, redpill or blackpill. I've seen a lot of content from both communities and I identify with almost all of it. I'm starting to get angry with women and I'm staying away from them more and more out of fear. After finding out that my mother is cheating on my father, and my father apparently doesn't suspect anything, I lost all trust in women. I haven't had the courage to tell my father about it yet. I'm afraid of what might happen. Maybe they'll break up by next year, but that's not the focus of this post.
Does anyone have any tips on what I can do? Haircut, ways to increase height, genital thickness, anything that increases my sexual market value, please. I'm desperate. I just want to be a real man.
