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I wrote this to an old dude I was chatting with when I was 21. He was about 70 and is now dead. It is funny how I said that in 15 years my opinion will only have solidified. Indeed 15 years have passed and my opinion has been solidified. I still agree 100% with what I wrote back then. I think it is amazing how well I understood things back then. So here is what I wrote:
"You are probably right and it is not possible to find fullfillment by doing a job. The reason I believe this is that I often believe there is nothing that can give you any fullfillment. When you were 20 things may have been different. Today you get divorced at 25 and then you hang yourself by 35 because you are paying alimony to three women which forces you to do your fucking boring job for a bunch of whores. This means only a very naive person would find fullfillment in family. And I can not find fullfillment in a job either except it would be doing exactly what I would want to do which I won't be able to do because I would need millions of Dollars to do it and I will be your age before I reach that. And this leads me to the next point: While in your generation you were prepared for war and trained in our generation we just eat crappy microwave food and thanks to cell phone radiation we won't get old anyway (if we do not hang ourselves by 35). This means once I reach your age it will probably be too late for me anyway. So as you see my chances to reach fullfillment are zero. I have been thinking about this carefully and I see that the social values you are propagating are not real. Humans are like worms and machines. They work by a program and their existence is entirely meaningless. Do not try to change my mind because I know what I am talking about better than most people your age do eventhough I am still young. We can talk about it again in 15 years and you will see that my opinion will only have solidified until then. But better don't try to understand me. It might be dangerous for you".
"You are probably right and it is not possible to find fullfillment by doing a job. The reason I believe this is that I often believe there is nothing that can give you any fullfillment. When you were 20 things may have been different. Today you get divorced at 25 and then you hang yourself by 35 because you are paying alimony to three women which forces you to do your fucking boring job for a bunch of whores. This means only a very naive person would find fullfillment in family. And I can not find fullfillment in a job either except it would be doing exactly what I would want to do which I won't be able to do because I would need millions of Dollars to do it and I will be your age before I reach that. And this leads me to the next point: While in your generation you were prepared for war and trained in our generation we just eat crappy microwave food and thanks to cell phone radiation we won't get old anyway (if we do not hang ourselves by 35). This means once I reach your age it will probably be too late for me anyway. So as you see my chances to reach fullfillment are zero. I have been thinking about this carefully and I see that the social values you are propagating are not real. Humans are like worms and machines. They work by a program and their existence is entirely meaningless. Do not try to change my mind because I know what I am talking about better than most people your age do eventhough I am still young. We can talk about it again in 15 years and you will see that my opinion will only have solidified until then. But better don't try to understand me. It might be dangerous for you".
