Let me start by saying I've always wanted to die like a Samurai; either in battle or by way of Seppuku or Harakiri.
But in the modern age it's not feasible to die in battle because if you do not have an attractive GF; fellow soldiers will outcast you.
Secondly, it's not possible to commit neither Seppuku or Harakiri because there is no one to decapitate me after I stick my knife in my stomach and commence forth.
So I wanted to do it by letting someone shoot me in the head after I've stuck the blade in my stomach and dragged in across my stomach, but finding someone willing to do this is insurmountably difficult.
So the best way is by using firearms. A shotgun. Blow the brainstem out of my head for an instant death. The problem is, I live in a castrated country so firearms are hard to obtain. Therefore if I ever rope I'll go to The USA or Germany; go to the range a few times for fun and when I'm resolute on roping, I will rope by blowing my brainstem out of my head with a shotgun.
This happening might upset the people at the range, and I empathize for those who will have to clean the mess up, but they did it to themselves.
By relentlessly outcasting me and not allowing me to enjoy the most basic need a man has: to have a family.
Sometimes I wish I was born in Afghanistan. All they need to worry about is if they have enough food to eat and water to drink. They only need to think about their daily
survival. A family is guaranteed. How are we in the West supposedly morally superior if we deny fellow countrymen basic human needs? This is a huge contradiction.
